Phantom Pain / the rapture

Losing you felt like losing a limb

It doesn't hurt anymore

But I still get phantom pains every now and then

And I don't even miss you just the parts of me

You took with you when you left

I loved you so much

Thought you were an extension of myself

You weren't vital to my survival

It's just what it felt like

It didn't kill me to lose you I just thought that it might

And right when I think I'm finally fine

The healing is done it's been enough time

That's when, it sinks back in...

The invisible

And incurable phantom pain of

Losing a limb

Losing you felt like an amputation

And I have to remind myself

I couldn't have cut you off if it weren't for the best

And I don't even miss you I just miss

How whole I felt before we met

Thought I was in love

But now I think that I was just codependent

You weren't vital to my survival

It's just what it felt like

It didn't kill me to lose you I just thought that it might

And right when I think I'm finally fine

The healing is done

It's been enough time

That's when, it sinks back in

The invisible

And incurable phantom pain of

Losing a limb

And it felt so good, to be wanted

But I willingly ignored the ache

Yeah, it felt so good to be wanted

I convinced myself

Love must be pain, it must be pain

You weren't vital to my survival

It's just what it felt like

It didn't kill me to lose you I just thought that it might

And right when I think I'm finally fine

The scars have all faded, it's been enough time

That's when, it sinks back in...

The invisible

And incurable

The impossible

Irreversible

Pins-and-needles

Thousand-cuts

Life-changing phantom pain

Of, losing a limb

You were the rapture

You came and went and left me behind

And I've been waiting on a second coming

But I realized, you rarely give first chances let alone second tries

Salvation was never made for me

I've been praying to false Gods my whole life

Religion and alcoholism run in my family

But I'm pretty sure all that's gonna fix this is time

It was only a matter of

It was only a matter of

It was only a matter of

It was only a matter of

It was only a matter of time