“Do You Wanna Be Friends?” / newly unrequited

"Do you wanna be friends?"

I mean I wanna be more

But if "friends" is how I get to have you

Then sure

I'll be quiet in my pining

I won't tell you about the pain

I'll be silent in the night

When I know that you're asleep

But I wanna ask you if you're awake

And so we'll be friends

And I'll be okay

The world won't end if you don't love me

Even if it feels that way

I'll be quiet in my pining

I won't tell you about the pain

I'll be silent in the night when

All I wanna do is tell you how pretty

I thought you looked today

I don't know where the line is so

I'll stay on my side even when you're not on yours

I'll tread lightly

In case I might be breaking a boundary

We used to break before

And so I'll be your best friend

Simple as that

And when you play pretend

That things are the way they were

I won't flirt back

No, I'll be quiet in my pining

I won't tell you about the pain

I'll be silent in the night when you text me and ask

"Hey. Are you awake?"

I know I said we could be friends

I'm sorry that I went back on my word

But please know I did try I hadn't realized

How bad seeing you be fine without me

Was going to hurt

I was devastated

It was humiliating

Because you never owed me anything

Much less reciprocation

Love newly unrequited

It made me villainize you

I was so hurt

It was easier to be angry than to be sad

So we can't be friends... but not because I don't like you

We can't be friends because of how much I do