Diet Coke / inside

Aspartame isn't the same as real sugar

Drinking Diet Coke never made me sweeter at all

Just smaller than I was before

Thought that if I were less of myself maybe he would want me more

But then the other day, I was on the internet

I read that aspartame is a carcinogen

Am I at higher risk of cancer than all of my friends?

Changed my body and my hobbies, switched from regular to diet

Used to wonder if being skinny

Would be worth it if I could die from it

But then I found out that being loved

And being small feel synonymous

So I don't know, if I could do it all again

Would I still drink Diet Coke?

Nothing feels as good as water on an empty stomach

Chewing sugar-free gum to try and curb my hunger

All my friends tell me I'm more than just "some stupid number

But nothing will taste as good as being small for summer

I'll change my body and my hobbies

Switched from regular to diet

Used to wonder if being skinny

Would be worth it if I could die from it

But then I found out that being loved and being small feel synonymous

So I don't know, if I could do it all again

Would I still drink Diet Coke?

The only thing I ate today

Was a Tylenol to cure the sweetener headache

And if everything has side effects

Starving myself for confidence seems like a fair trade

I'll change my body and my hobbies, switched from regular to diet

Used to wonder if being skinny

Would be worth it if I could die from it

But then I found out that being loved and being small feel synonymous

So I guess I already know, if I could do it all again

If I could do it all again

If I could do it all again

I would still drink Diet Coke

(I just like the way it tastes)

Every t-shirt that own is two sizes too big

Don't want anyone to know I have a body

But even if I started wearing clothes that actually fit

My skin is still so tight I can't breathe comfortably

And so it stretches, so thin it breaks

And that leaves little lines that are both angry and sad

And I am embarrassed and ashamed

Of the red and purple stretch marks that litter my entire lower half

So I try to make myself look as small as I feel

I hunch my shoulders and avert my eyes

And pray to God that someone can see the appeal

Of a person whose only pretty on the inside