(redacted)

I don't know I've never written a song

Where somebody's name was the title or was part of the lyrics

So I'll probably just change the lyrics to be hummed where their name is

And call it something stupid and self-aware like (redacted)

I don't wanna try to love you

For the sake of my own self-discovery

I am well aware that would be cruel

I don't wanna take advantage of the feelings you have for me

Especially not when I don't know what it is I feel for you

I mean, I know that I love being your friend

So much so it makes me question if I might want a little bit more

But I won't turn you into an experiment

Just so I can be completely sure, so

I'm so sorry but I think I should go

It just wouldn't be fair to you, you know

Do I like you or do I just hate being alone

I don't wanna give you false hope or entertain something

That's never gonna come true

I would never try to lead you on

But I don't wanna figure out who I am

Through figuring out if I like you

So I think it might be best if we just stopped

But I really love being your friend

And it's selfish but at the end of this, I hope that you'll still let me be

Because even if you were a willing participant

If I've experimented

I never want your heartache to be because of me, so

I'm so sorry but I think I need to go

It isn't fair to you that I don't know

If I like you or if I just hate being alone

I'm not leaving because I don't care

I have to go because the idea of being in love with you

Makes me so scared and I don't know who I am anymore

But I know that I never even question it before I met you, so

I'm so sorry that I have to go

You'd be a casualty of my curiosity, so

I think it's best if we never know

If I like you or if I just hate being alone

And yet I love