Lip Service

You can't hurt me anymore than you have already

It's taking everything in me not to be petty

What once was easy is now feeling pretty heavy

Waiting is romance until they are never ready

All that lip service

Filled me right up and over the surface

I get next to you and I still get nervous

The stomach drop when you said I don't deserve this

I don't deserve this

"It's just not like you", is what I tell myself but

How could I know that?

I guess it's true love, 'cause you always come right back

Or reliability is what you lack, I don't wanna know that

You talk of timing like our planets just aren't aligning

As if we don't have any say in deciding

As if my tongue is the only one I'm biting

As if I don't have all your confessions down in writing

(Yeah, it's the timing)

All that lip service

Filled me right up and over the surface

I get next to you and I still get nervous

The stomach drop when you said I don't deserve this

I don't deserve this

I don't deserve this

I can't let you lie to me

I don't know who you're trying to be

I didn't wanna up and leave

But I knew you wouldn't stay with me

I think about you all the time

We thought it would, but it never died

My guilt is who I sleep beside

I wonder if you're warm tonight

We tried to control all the damage

Yeah, you couldn't let go, I couldn't handle

All the doubt in my mind came and swallowed

All that's left is the hurt where you hollowed

I can't listen to the songs that you gave me

Wish you'd saved yourself, 'cause now I gotta save me

Now I gotta save me

Is there a world we could make this better?

Will I question your intentions forever?

My skull is cracking under pressure

But Phoebe said "it's for the better"

I double back on the overpass

Yeah, I do what I can to make this last

You tell me that it's real and it cuts like glass

I'm scared of how I feel when you talk like that

(When you talk like that)

(Can I talk like that?)

(When you talk like that)

(Can I talk like that?)

You were a gift, though

And I would do it all again, so

Maybe we can try whenever you are able

I'm not waiting, I'm just sitting at the table