goodbye

Almost 5 a.m., I find it harder to sleep

I crack the window and I hear every animal sing

With a wind blowing soft, rustling through the leaves

Admire nature as it comes alive from winter to spring

The flowers grow so tall that they start to bloom

And I just took a couple out 'cause I picked them for you

Hoping one day you'll travel here to see what's new

'Cause this bouquet is gonna die if you don't visit me soon

And I have a difficult time

Spending days when you're on my mind

Wish this would just go away

'Cause I'm trying to push you away

Why do I feel lonely

Knowing I hurt to see

An outcast no one wants to be

And giggled at and always being teased?

Can someone give a valid reason on why I shouldn't die?

In disbelief that I will never see a point in life

I'm on and off of feeling bad and for a second I'm fine

It's so messed up and I don't think that I will ever resign

I'm so bipolar and I don't want you to see me like this

'Cause I guarantee I'll scare you if I speak from my chest

I didn't mean for you to leave when you saw that on my wrist

And I'm so sorry for putting you through all of this

So why do you keep playing with me?

Is it 'cause you get lonely?

In the night and think of us

Well, it's fine 'cause I think of us too

Why do I feel like this?

Well, never mind 'cause you don't care about this

And if I die, will you grieve?

And will you cry and will you miss me?

Can someone give a valid reason on why I shouldn't die?

'Cause you make me wanna kill myself or go grab the knife

I'm at the age where I can never see a point in life

In disbelief of everything that I'm just wasting my time

I'm so bipolar and I don't want you to see me like this

'Cause I guarantee I'll scare you if I speak from my chest

I'm at the bottom of the ocean with all of my regrets

There's many things I wish were gone or wish I could reset

I step into the light and did this without a group

And so you noticing me now when I'm steady on the move

And you just think it's all okay to hit me up out of the blue

I'm not your friend or type of benefit to satisfy you

So please give a valid reason that you want me dead

Is it safe to even know that this just might be a test?

For you to trick me into thinking I'm nothing but a mess

Delete your image that I longed for and not seen again

If I can't love, will I end up

Alone and forgot or spend it with someone?

I can't fall in love, my hearts dead, probably numb

I miss you, my dear, it feels like it's been years

No way home, I was never close

The path ends here, don't know where to go

Stone cold lies, I knew I was right

So farewell 'cause this is goodbye