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I got some words to speak

And sometimes it hurts to speak

My condition's worsening

Can't see the vision, having blurry dreams

Surprised my demons haven't murdered me

I've been working hard, but they don't really see it

You need a hero, well I try to be it

I was feeling so good, but then I got defeated

Self-abuse and mistreatment, going to the deep end

Don't know what I should believe in

Currently, it's 3 am; I'm alone

Got some music playing

Typing all these words on my phone

In the house, but it don't ever feel like I'm home

Finding answers to the question that will never be known

I just want to be the one that I need

I got a girl, and in reality, she's something to me

Tried to speak, to where she started getting red face

Told me she didn't want me, now I'm feeling like a friend a