after you

I could never hate you

Doesn't matter what you do

I know that you hate me

Usually I hate me too

Tired of complaining

But I don't know what else to do

Tired of explaining

Every wrong move I choose

Feels like I've lost every reason

Nobody else to believe in

Think I've got too many secrets

So I keep sleeping and dreaming

That once for a change I could feel something else

And it pains me to stay with the cards I've been dealt

I could keep moving forwards and look for some help

But I'd rather exist with just you and myself

So, baby, tell me what hits harder than my words

I'm sick and tired of explaining so you first

I still can't find it so I can't tell you my worth

So, baby, tell me would you feel the same

If you were hurt

Like, would it work?

Would you find me useful

Or would I be like dirt?

And maybe it's just a process

One that I can not process

Bang my head on the wall

And you won't tell me I lost it

Please just tell me I lost it

I could never hate you

Doesn't matter what you do

I know that you hate me

Usually I hate me too

Tired of complaining

But I don't know what else to do

Tired of explaining

Every wrong move I choose