This Is Me Lately

Gun in hand, spot him, I'ma down him (FOREVEROLLING)

Niggas is hoes, niggas do a fairy tale life

Not me, though, ay-ay-ay

Big Gee, nigga

Camping out in front of niggas' houses

Week ended, he owe me allowance

Disrespect, how could I allow it?

Gun in hand, spot him, I'ma down him

Heart pounding, hooked, I'm taking downers

Any love inside me, I'ma drown it

You never stood for nothing, you a coward

Wrong nigga, hope they never find me

Bet they whole section know about me

They don't show no love for out-of-towners

Still trappin' baggies on the counter

Shawty want some every time I count it

Searchin' for the source to all my problems

Late nights high, I talk to Bonnie

Pray he take the pain from out my body

With the Father, I still lack the guidance

All that lyin' turned me to a lion

Woop stripes, nigga, I'm a tiger

Baptize a nigga in the fire

Pray he mend relations with my mama

Lately, cancer eatin' up her body

Lately, she don't even recognize me

Lately, lot of fake love been around me

Lately, I'm erasin' all my problems

Lately, tough to make a couple thousand

Lately, niggas don't keep it a thousand

Lately, think 'bout smokin' everybody

Lately, I want smoke with everybody

Lately, I don't joke with anybody

Lately, drinkin', smokin' keep me grounded

Lately, niggas want me to be violent

Lately, I found hope in all my silence

Lately, I keep hammers right beside me

Lately, I can't help but think about it

Late nights sittin' in the county

Thinkin' thoughts like, "They don't care about me"

Every Sunday, prayin' for a visit

You said fuck me, now I know you meant it

Flashback sittin' in the kitchen

Watch the door, blood in here whippin'

Starvin', walkin', tryna find a victim

Death or prison, been made my decision

Politicking, sending out a 50

Wrappin', shippin', catchin', I deliver

I'ma split the package with my nigga

I been out here grindin', gettin' it with him

If he switch up on me, I'ma kill him

I'ma put my nigga out his misery

Cryin' to his mama and his sister

Grind, tryna get us out the trenches

X's when I sleep, I have a vision

Nigga in my bushes with a lemon

I ain't flinch, I told a nigga, "Get me"

Lately, everybody say they feel me

Lately, I don't want nobody near me

Lately, I been feelin' like the nigga

Lately, I been feelin' like the nigga (Big Gee, nigga)