goodbye

Clock is ticking; I just want it stop

Time is flowing like a river, water all on my watch

Nah, I'm kidding; I'm a broke kid, never was a dope kid

Eating lunch, fourth grade, had to go and choke kid

Thought it was over, body numb, no sensations

Thinking to myself like "Oh boy," the ends waiting

I gotta go; I'm sorry, mama, I didn't make it

You wanna see me now, but someone told me to keep you waiting

Life is cruel in a beautiful way

Wish I had some more friends that would want me to stay

Never thought that even heaven's skies could get so grey

And could you tell me when perfection never got so vague

Feel like it's not real, feel like I'm waking up

19 years, when I go like did I take enough

Girl and I are breaking up, was really shaken up

Told me that she cheated three times, I can't make this up

Life is crazy, and it's unexpected

And I'm just sick of learning every lesson

I'm scared of love; that's only one confession

I miss the world before I lost my presence

I really question almost everything

'Cause I just wanna know what's going on

Like is there something out there waiting for me

Whatever, I'll just put myself inside a countless song

Can you relate to this? Am I insane to you?

Did I just help you with a problem? Did I save you too?

Okay, probably not; I shouldn't just assume

But I been looking for support, so what am I to do

I'm having flashbacks of old-school hatchbacks

Whipping on the backroads, the matchbox had no gas

These random memories, invading me

They leave my mind empty; I been suffering from vacancy

In a house, but it's never been home

Like you alone cause you chose, and I'm alone like a ghost

These people see me and avoid me; I'm a joke, I suppose

Maybe it's the way I talk, or how I'm wearing my clothes

I think I'm different; never listen if they calling me out

My mama told me not to worry, try reducing my doubts

It didn't work; I'm a mess, I see the tears in my eyes

It's time to go, always knew my biggest fear was goodbyes