next to u

There is much I wonder about a great many things (Heylog)

I understand that

Do you?

You make it so hard to live

I feel like I'm in hell

My parents ain't raise no kid

Who'll just end up killing himself

I could shut down

And no one will ever find me

I could lie down

And see you there next to me

I need you to focus

I'm crying, I'm broken

But no one really cares how I'm feeling so hopeless

I hate your guts, and I hate your friends

I realized you all suck, so I'll just cut you instead

Now I think of you less, 'cause I thought highly of you

So I distanced away to try something new

I'm steady being myself, something you'd never do

But I still wish you the best, even though I still hate you

♪

You texted me

I'm not sure what to say

I'll respond in a week

Maybe two, maybe three

Avoiding us and move on

Though I still write you in songs

It's the emotions you hold

That never feels wrong

♪

God I'm so disappointed at everything that I do

I'll play some guitar, record a couple of loops

But it ain't met with my standards

So I start something new

At least I put in some work

Which you'll never do

Taking pics of the wall

Add a plant and a book, write a verse and a bridge

'Cause I ain't good with no hook

I keep repeating myself

Am I speaking too much?

I'm not a person who talks, so I'll just chill in the back and watch!