Spiderwebs

When I get lonely I get stupid

Bottle my feelings then I use them

To get drunk

To get blurry

So I don't miss the way you hurt me

When I get lonely I get angry

How'd I let somebody change me?

Mess me up

Call me crazy

Making me love you 'til I hate me

It ain't easy being honest with myself no not at all

All these lies I spin like spiderwebs I'm pinned against the wall

But the truth is I

Lost my mind

Change my hair

And I changed my size

So I could fit

Into all your needs

I made you my identity

Never thought loving you

Meant losing me

Saying my friendships were unhealthy

Till I had no one else to help me

Cut me off

Cut me open

So you could fix someone that's broken

I was strong

You were weak

Now you're holding it against me

Put you back

On your feet

Fed your ego I went hungry

It ain't easy being honest with myself no not at all

All these lies I spin like spiderwebs I'm pinned against the wall

But the truth is I

Lost my mind

Change my hair

And I changed my size

So I could fit

Into all your needs

I made you my identity

Never thought loving you

Meant losing me

The truth is I

Lost my mind

I miss my hair

And I miss my eyes

The way they were

Before these tears

Who am I without you here

It ain't easy being honest with myself no not at all

All these lies I spin like spiderwebs I'm pinned against the wall

But the truth is I

Lost my mind

Change my hair

And I changed my size

So I could fit

Into all your needs

I made you my identity

Never thought loving you

Meant losing me